With this subject I can split it Pre and Post June/July time last year...
Pre June, I would say I was at the top end of the scale. I don't mix well with people and I was very conscious over every action. I just came out of a period of extreme bullying. I don't really get how to interact with people really on my own. I would often want to have every controlled. If something isn't controlled by me, I would get frustrated. I would plan what I say to people. I would panic if asked a question and would stutter with the answer. I would plan simply how to leave the classroom, in fear of making a fool of myself somehow. I would stay off the school site and bugger off about 2 miles away (walk) in bramber as I would be on my own. I would be paranoid over smell's, what people are thinking of me.
What did I do? I decided to study particular people. Watch how they interact. Form little experiments. In order to learn. I was very conscious of 'friends' and a particular girl and was very fearful of saying the wrong thing. Trouble is it always felt like I was saying the wrong thing, with the wierd looks I got. Finally when I found someone to connect with, I felt like I was loosing them and in frustration of that, CF saw the rage of my wraith.
Basically all about social conforming really. But come June/July about the release of the 13 doc when discovering another person like me, (TS), Inspired off her life story partly, I suddenly had a thought. Why am I trying to conform with something that everybody else does? Whats the point of living a life that every-other average person lives? The consciousness of what I am is holding me back. No. This ends. No more misery. I decided I'm going to be myself, be different and embrace what makes me happy and who I am, not giving a single toss what the sheep think. Problem fixed. Hopefully someone has seen the change...
So on that end, I would now lower my conciousness on that scale to about 2.